winter's back to school special
august 17, 2024
it's that stupid time of year again!
after a messy, horrible summer break (i got kicked out of home for a month-ish, don't ask.) school's finally started again for me. hooray. three cheers for Winter.
i'll be honest, i'm not too excited. i've been doing this for, like, 10 years at this point and it sucks. what makes it worse is that i'm in a catholic school which means everything is horribly queerphobic.
...except, it isn't? the teachers i've met are actually very queer friendly, and there's a lot of LGBTQ+ people and allies in the school, which is very surprising. there are still the general assholes and shit but that's a given anywhere, especially in a community like my school's. they don't, like, openly celebrate pride month or something but the gays are there!
the first week has passed, and i gotta say: it was an absolute mess of a week. not too happy about it. i broke down so much these past 5 days. i feel so fucking tired emotionally and physically. i don't know if the benefits could even outweigh the negatives this time 'round.
i should've expected this, but i'm stuck with the same fucking people AGAIN. it sucks so much. i really wanted at least a few more girls in our class but nope, it's just the 4 of us again, at least i know what to expect with them. technically, i'm not part of the girls on the list, but in reality we all get the gist of it, right?)
it's crazy that, it's just the first week and we all get thrown a fucking 500-item national test on our faces. i'm pretty sure it's just for reference though, as it's like one of those shitty "Which Evangelion Character Are You?" (or something similar idk) online quizzes but for determining your career n' such, and it isn't as shitty. literally one subtest was just "hey how'd you like doing x task?" for 215 items!
that aside though, the teachers - especially our adviser - seem really nice, and i feel like that'll make things better this year. our adviser is quite strict, but i find her friendly and approachable. she's in the same department as our adviser last year, so i assume she knows of me via the old teacher. if you don't know what i'm rambling about, it's like a homeroom teacher in anime n' such, like yukari and nyamo from azumanga daioh.
anywho, that seems about it for this entry. i'm still scared about this school year, i'll admit, but let's let time tell, shall we?
bye y'all! see you on the next one