one hell of a welcome
september 3, 2025
it's happened. uh, welcome to canada, i guess?
sorry for being gone for a few days, uh, been busy moving in and adjusting. wasn't even jetlagged, actually. i slept sorta in synch with local time here during my 18-ish hours of flight time from manila to toronto, spread over 3 flights. something on one of the flights (i think it was the meal on the 1st flight) made my stomach super upset though so that was NOT fun. shoutout to westjet for the worst landing i've ever experienced so far though, that was god awful.
speaking of being busy, yeah, aside from doing the moving-in stuff, i've been going around places like... walmart. just going around the place, familiarize myself with the area n' such. some friends of my parents came over and helped and other... stuff i guess, which was nice. they're filipino too, actually.
uhmm, what else can i say...? not a lot, frankly.
it's cold, i guess? i mean, makes sense cuz it's almost, like, fall or something. that shocked me once i was out of the airport. thing is i don't think i'll be prepared once winter season (not me lol) arrives, i don't have any like coats n stuff.
i don't know if it's just in my town but the pizza here's quite good, i ate a few from different spots around my city and they're all pretty good. there's this one i really enjoyed though, you get a big slice for like $5 so i guess it's relatively cheap? i'm not... entirely sure about that but it was pretty good. i've eaten almost nothing but pizza for the past 3 or so days...
i haven't started school yet actually, i've been registered about 2 weeks late just to allow time for me to adjust. i'm honestly kinda scared. i'll be going to a catholic school. again. i've done my research on it but like, i guess i should be okay-ish...? thinking about stresses me the fuck out... i just gotta be alone i guess... i'm honestly considering coming out to my parents to at the very least guarantee my safety but i know that's a very rash decision. they're not the most, like, progressive, i'd say? they're pretty much very religious.
but on the bright side, i've met someone i can trust i think. also the first queer person i know irl that's like not in my age bracket lol. i might go to them for, like, help and stuff. don't worry too much though, i know i can trust them.
i mean, at least canada's a nice country for queer people like me. a quick search online gives me several sources saying that this is the best country for LGBTQIA+ folks to be in so i should be fine. i'm just not sure about like, y'know, the catholic/christian community.
overall, right now, i'm scared. i have hope for the future, but i'm scared. i feel trapped, encaged, bounded by culture and shit from where i'm from. but eventually, i'll be free. i don't know when that day is, but it's coming. just gotta remind myself that it's okay to cry and that all will come to pass.